Dear Lenka and dear Tomáš,
Thank you very much for the dark retreat in your magical southern sanctuary.
I’d like to take stock of what the darkness has revealed to me so far (so far, because I can feel it will certainly carry on, as I’m now following my heart, and that is a real force). I’m very grateful to the darkness for it, but to the two of you as well.
The emotions and tears are slowly subsiding, and what remains and keeps deepening is a feeling of peace in my soul. The doubts that used to whirl around in my head seem to get an immediate answer as to why this or that is the way it is, and my soul sinks back into deep peace without any sense of guilt: “What on earth did I say, what did I do”. It simply is “the way it is, full stop”
I’ll be completely specific, because there’s simply no other way now: it’s wonderful that you are both just the way you are.
To you, Lenka
thank you for your rushed, sometimes chaotic and loud way of speaking. Because if I hadn’t experienced it, I wouldn’t have lived through what that rush can stir up in someone who is quietly sitting in the darkness: chaos, inattention. And this is actually what was happening to me as a teacher, mother, wife, woman: I was too fast and hasty, then people didn’t understand me and I asked myself: “Why are they like this towards me?!” That’s actually why I didn’t quite catch how the departure would go, and I probably woke you rather inconsiderately, wanting to say goodbye and thank you properly. Thank you for a great lesson: calm and composure. You can’t imagine how my chaotic nature tormented me. Thank you that, thanks to you, I left it in the sanctuary.
To you, Tomáš
in turn, thank you for your calm and balanced approach. For reminding me again and again about covered eyes, for the time to put my questions into words: “Why do you actually think that?” and for waiting for my answer. And for explaining what will happen once I’m home after the therapy. Above all, thank you for the calm, order and harmony. But could I have appreciated these qualities so deeply if there hadn’t been the contrast of the chaos brought about by a different approach? No, I couldn’t!
It is absolutely necessary and natural for good and evil to be present in all of creation, in every person, animal, plant… Otherwise we aren’t able to experience and feel ourselves and everything around us.
And a human being is a divine being, not a machine.
Thank you both so much for the deep peace of soul that the two of you and the darkness have given me.
Míša
