Hi Lenka and Tom,
What did the Darkness give me? I’m writing it with a capital -D- on purpose, because that darkness really is absolute and magnificent. You probably can’t find darkness like that anywhere else 😉
The Darkness gave me exactly what I needed
I didn’t expect to reach nirvana, or to have some great unknown secret of the universe revealed to me. And that’s a good thing, because it gave me exactly what I needed: it cleared my springs, clogged with the silt of everyday life, and I realised again, with amazement, what and who really matters to me. It sounds like a cliché, surely you know that already… except you forget, and you think things are simply given and permanent. And so, with a stream of tears that lasted two days, I washed away the silt inside me and once again saw the truth clearly, in all its nakedness. It was a feeling that is hard to put into words. In one sentence I’d probably say it like this: Thanks to the Darkness I will try to be a better person.
Looking back
Now, a month later, the feeling isn’t as intense, and you tend to slip back into old habits and patterns, but when that happens I stop for a moment and close my eyes. I find a little piece of Darkness inside me, sink into it, and that “calms me down”. I hope it stays with me! 🙂
Thank you for doing such meaningful “work”. 😉
Bye, and have a lovely spring 🙂
Iva
