Hello,
I have to say that ever since coming back from the dark I’ve been wondering what to write to you. It feels to me as if any words are unnecessary. What I feel can’t be put into words, but I’m sending it to you in my thoughts and I believe you can feel it too 🙂
I had never experienced such complete darkness. These days, when cities are lit up even at night, it was a gift for me. As soon as the light went out, the cosy sanctuary suddenly turned into an infinite space. Even though I ended my retreat early, which was very unexpected even for me, I understood and realised a great many things…
One of the many things the dark brought me was a kind of “little death” of my ego… which I only understood after I got back, and it was connected with ending the retreat early. I have also accepted myself, I have forgiven, I feel that everything is right just as it is, I don’t expect anything, I let things flow as they are, I’m grateful…. in short, “As within, so without.”
Thank you so much for a beautiful experience, and I trust this wasn’t my last dark retreat with you.
With love
Jana
