Why did I go into the Dark?
I came into the Dark, if I may put it this way, for harmony between me: the Light and my Body… Unfortunately, it’s only from a certain stage of my life that I’ve been aware of the importance of my physical vessel, and that it is what allows me to experience and learn here and now.
There isn’t always a firm bond between my Soul and my Body; at times they each move on different levels, especially under stress…, and the result is weakness, illness….
This is my learning ground at the moment. I believe that what is spoken out loud enters reality. So I take this opportunity to apologise to my neighbours in the Dark, because sometimes I had to yell and cry at the top of my lungs. And laugh too… regardless of the time…
Trees of life
I knew, and it also happened, that I would use the White Light cleansing technique for this – energy where you work systematically upwards from your toes, mechanically at first. Focused on the breath; later the Universe takes over and guides the script so that it is in harmony with everyone’s development…. it is important to consciously ground yourself well into Mother Earth (otherwise you might take off and end up in the psychiatric hospital in Havlíčkův Brod instead of going home)
I am in harmony with the fact that we are Trees of life, connected to one another (which is why our surroundings mirror what we are living at the moment); our roots are linked to the core of the Earth and our crown to the Universe…
The Tree of Life has several gates; I want to mention the Gate of People at the diaphragm and the Gate of Gods at the throat… if energy doesn’t flow freely down and up, up and down, it stagnates and we set ourselves up for illness.
The Universe comes naturally to me, but only recently did I realise that the opposite direction is just as important… that’s the harmony I’m missing….
Respect and admiration
Right after the first day spent in the Dark – enormous respect and admiration for blind people.
Admiration and respect for the strength and will to live of people who went through a concentration camp… at one moment I was suddenly lying on a hard plank bed in striped clothes, I was cold, I was hungry, I was fiddling in my pocket with my little crust of bread saved for even worse times, but somehow I was admirably strong, without fear, with faith in a good ending…
What I asked for, I got in the end…
My understanding came through my body, with all the consequences that are human and need not be named 🙂 . They kicked in fully when I opened the cabin door; I went through what you might call a restart…
Luckily my husband knows what it’s about; he stayed calm and looked after me. Now it will be up to me alone whether I bring the benefit of that realisation into my being here and now.
I’m a pessimist
It was a rather painful and surprising discovery that I don’t see the glass as half full but as half empty, and how that affects my whole being, my planning, my reactions.
I thought I’d sorted this out long ago…. certainly on some levels, yes, but we all know there are infinitely many levels… 🙂 I accept this fact, and in doing so I open the door for it to be able to change.
Realisations from my experiences
In dreams, and out of the Dark while fully conscious, long-forgotten memories surfaced, including unpleasant experiences – fundamental, life-defining ones. I respected that and allowed myself to say what I hadn’t said back then, at the top of my lungs. To live through them again…
I practised a lot of Ho´ oponopono… and did a few exercises from Qigong, which helped with my back pain and headaches. Next time I’ll definitely ask for nothing but fruit, nuts, tea… and buns to be brought to me 🙂
I thank my Body for its patience and kindness; only now can I lovingly say “I accept you”… To allow myself to let emotions out and enjoy it, in a good sense.
I am grateful for the abundance I am currently receiving in the material and the spiritual world, the joy of being, of little things, of motherhood… freedom, liberty, partnership… the opportunity to learn…
Peace, Humility and patience, the wisdom of the Mother of the lineage, Love without conditions
hugs
Ivana
