Hi everyone,
I was brought to a dark retreat by my unborn baby. Even before conceiving, I sometimes felt that this might be my path, I gave it free space, until during one meditation in my 7th month it became clear.
Finding a dark retreat during pregnancy isn’t easy
Thanks to the wonderful approach of Tomáš and Lenka Roud, I was able to undergo darkness therapy even in the 8th month of pregnancy, although other providers of this service had discouraged me because of possible complications or a possible premature birth.
An amazing 5-day dark retreat
My baby and I spent 5 days in the dark. It was amazing. I found that it wasn’t anything new for me, it’s the same state as when you’re at home every day, only there you have no toys (computer, kitchen, cleaning, etc.). So you are really alone with yourself.
At first I slept, and only around day 3 did the first wave come, when fears I thought I had dealt with long ago started to come loose from my subconscious. They appeared in various forms, the best of them being a nightmare.
I found the light within me on a dark retreat
With dreams like that, light or a hug always used to help me, but here, when you wake up, you’re alone and it’s dark everywhere, so the only light is within you. And that was the greatest treasure I found in myself.
The light in me that shines even when it’s dark all around. After the darkness therapy ended, many more tests came of course, it had an aftermath of about 14 days.
Now, a month later, I can say that this deep family theme has been worked through and lived with love. Many thanks to my baby and to Tomáš and Lenka Roud, who were very friendly and kind.
And those lunches, yum 😀
Natálie
