Greetings, friends of dark retreats.
It has been a long time since I tried darkness therapy, but I still remember it and it stays with me through life.
Preparing for the dark retreat
I prepared for the “sanctuary”, both mentally and physically, for quite a while before going in. Today I know it was unnecessary and maybe even did a bit of harm.
The dark retreat wasn’t a problem for me and finding my way around was surprisingly easy. I moved more slowly and more deliberately than in life in the light. Today I understand that for me it symbolises these hurried times.
I went into the dark retreat full of hope
The home-made food was excellent and the flavours were surprisingly intense. After a short fast I discovered the hidden taste of food.
I went into the darkness hoping I would get information about my future, about which direction to take my life in. Instead came a big disappointment that the answer didn’t come.
You steer your own life, you set it up and create it yourself, it’s just easier to be with someone who leads you by the hand and not to be responsible for your own actions. The more I wanted an answer, the more my mind raced.
A storm of thoughts and expectations. The thoughts couldn’t be stopped, thrown away or hidden. They were there and they always will be, it’s just up to me how I perceive them. Whether it’s an attack from the depths of my soul or the sun setting in the twilight.
Everything has its time
My life after the darkness is an awakening and an understanding that everything has its time to show itself. And what I wished for so much is starting to show itself, with a delay.
With the passing of time I’m becoming more and more aware of everything.
I’m not saying it’s always beautiful and fulfilling. It is the way I wished it to be. And that’s the catch.
Because I dare say that few people really know what they want.
A dark retreat for everyone
Thank you for an unforgettable experience that everyone should go through at least once in their life.
Thank you for the willingness with which you devote yourselves to people, and for what radiates from you.
Jarda
