Has it really been a month since I finished my dark retreat?
Time seems to run faster in my universe 🙂
In the dark it was black and soft
What was it like in the dark? Black. Surprisingly, very black and very soft. Time somehow passes more slowly when you’re inside yourself. It’s strange how you notice the difference between eyes open and eyes closed. You see the same big fat nothing either way, but that sense of being at one with yourself is very peculiar.
Before I went into the dark, I put some meditations and exercises on an MP3 player. A fairly “random selection”, you could say. I hadn’t meditated much, so I had no strong preferences. But I wasn’t born yesterday, and I know there’s simply no such thing as coincidence, and nothing special happened to me in the dark, luckily no “bogeymen” or anything like that, so I ask myself: why, then?
You usually only see it looking back, why life puts certain people or situations in your way. Life is very wise, so why resist it? One way or another you’ll live through it, only the intensity goes up. Some of the meditations caught my interest so much that even here “outside” I simply make time to stop inside myself for a while. What once would have been a “waste of time” (a rather amusing line where a dark retreat is concerned) now seems much more important to me. The world is somehow more beautiful, don’t you think?
A dark retreat is not a waste of time
I think, no, I know that I’m enjoying life in a biological body much more. After all, life is only a game, so why not enjoy it properly?
The dark retreat was a strange and beautiful episode for me, and certainly a priceless experience. Thank you so much for it.
When I “HAPPEN” to be passing by… well, you know how it is. I’ve saved your phone number.
You are wonderful people, I’m very fond of you
With love in my heart, I give you a hug
Anička
