Hi,
in short, day by day it went: boring, boring, boring, aha, damn, AHA, thank you, darkness.
The first days really were boring, maybe because I’ve been working on myself for years, ever
since my partner nearly died. Up to the third day I was genuinely bored,
then the visions came: I was flying through stone cellars and a cross
carved in stone kept appearing to me in two versions, Christian and Celtic.
In the evening my eyes hurt unbelievably, so I decided to keep them closed
until the end.
There really is a difference between walking in the dark with your eyes closed or open 🙂 . With my eyes closed I found my way without bumping into things, and the other way round, from which I concluded that I rely on my sight too much, so in life too I try to feel rather than look.
What did I take with me? The only thing I took was a notebook for writing things down, but no toys, so that I’d be alone with my subconscious.
What did I gain?
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- The awareness that I am a loved child, even though my childhood was terrifying.
- I’ve grown up – I’m 42 – in my relationship with my father; at last I behave as if
he had already died. - Two guides appeared to me, a good wolf and a bad wolf, and they are still with me.
- I made friends with my inner child; it is incredibly playful and
has the power to heal. - My inner dialogue has calmed down; even when I find myself in an emotionally wild
situation around me, I’m able to analyse it calmly and help others.
Stanislav
